A long, rough work day behind me, I settled into my usual corner table at a restaurant near the office. Pulled out the novel I've been re-reading, though lately I'd not found any inspiration in the wild and free philosophy espoused within. This particular evening I was cursing my awkwardness, cowardice, and inability to vocalize certain thoughts.
I take that back, I wasn't actually lamenting the situation I'd created through inaction - merely over-analyzing it. Even on my way to the restaurant I had been thinking of ways to right the situation. But then, halfway through the entree, the Nick Drake song came on over the satellite radio. I almost lost it. I hadn't heard it since...
It brought some clarity to the situation, in a sort of gut-wrenching, soul-searing way... and now I must listen to this song over and over again until it sinks in, or at least until I become numb to it.
Regardless, the lazy zen attitude requires no work, it just comes to you - and hopefully the answer to this dilemma will come to me.
More importantly, a happy birthday greeting to haloform, and a bon voyage to cameo.
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